Tonight won't make a difference

When did I end up so on my own? Alone is how its been for so long. On my own is another type of solo state. I used to allow everyone to see me. Vulnerable and free spirited. My stories are jumbled because I either don't trust anyone with them or I'm just not used to talking to anyone anymore. What would it matter to anyone? Why can't I be with anyone? I've been floating in this bubble of myself for so long. Everyone ran away without me. At least they seem happier now. They are happier now.

We all know what that makes me.