Excerpts from a 4:16AM Monologue

But I know that people don’t change all that much. I didn’t want to pay attention to it, but at the back of my head I always had a hunch that this could just be some dumb revenge plot. Your timing of everything makes it look like it was. And you even told me to trust you. Luckily for me, there’s a giant blank of reality for me to miss and you’ll be gone for so long during my first legal summer so it’s pretty okay. But you manipulated me still and kept me on an emotional and mental leash instead of a physical one this time. You were misleading not playing. I applaud you for being so sinister. And in fact I kinda thank you for this mistake. For sharpening my radar, making me hypercritical of cutesy only a few words responses, less tolerate for the hot and cold, and for reminding me that I do have a heart.