The problems in my life

University
I guess it was my fault for not knowing what I wanted in the first place. I pushed it out of interest to avoid the truth that I was afraid. I didn't know which roads to take and I never made huge efforts to guide me. Procrastinating on the whole concept really put me into the core of its muck. I made suggestions that would make me financially guilt-free. But then I was assured that that should be the last of my worries. So I took a plunge into my current depression. Not expecting anything, neither positive or negative. So I wallow here.

The Reoccurring Ghost
I realized how cruel your moves were. And I was able to move on from it. Distract myself with everything else in my life. Built up new motivations and ideals that steered me away from you and yours. I realized the pain that you filled in me. And then as if you didn't ignore me for the last 4 months, you come back expecting everything to be a clean slate. You were right last night, when you said you need to learn how to grow up. Now before you tell me that it was all in bad timing, please just leave.

My Innocent Fear
I joked once that I love being the cause of fear. But infront of you I fret. And I get giddy.