My new problem:

Ever since I was told that my friend goes to SpEd because his brain can only focus on ONE thing at a time, I've taken on the habit. Well more so recently than before, but at times it'd hit me previously. If I'm in class and my face gestures actively towards the speaker or my pen begins to jot down a few notes, I'm not actually paying attention. Most likely I'm thinking of plans, ideas, dreams, images, songs, things to celebrate. This brain can no longer multi-task my own thoughts. Perhaps my brain capacity is too small, which is too sad now. Or maybe I'm just filled with too many thoughts, I like this point better. Or maybe I need to go to SpEd? My development is de-evolving, but I'm not stupid. I know I'm a clever girl. I just don't care about the same things they have to teach me every year.