This Entry Makes No Sense
Current Song: Lose You- Peter Yorn
I know that I say that I don't need certain people anymore, but of course, I know that I'm not certain of that. Sure it's easy half of the time not putting up with the same old from the same person, but really I feel empty. I'm missing someone and something that used to be a huge part of me. No, correction; I'm missing alot. But I don't want to go back to it. I hate dwelling on the past. I hate remembering the old bonds. It's useless to go back to most of them. I really don't care for them. I know I can say that for sure. It was like living in a bubble. We were only limited to each other on certain days, and we followed through with that routine for what seemed like ages. For some of these people that I'm talking about, I do actually miss them. I miss him so so much and I know that right now, I can't have him. I can't keep contact with him. I wrote out a letter to a friend, but I still havn't finished it, let alone made any plans on sending it really. The letter started with some compassionate information and memories, but after a week, my feelings shifted and now I just feel like writing some raw material about how I've been. This other girl, we'll call her May, used to be my bestest friend. I do know how, but I don't get how, but nonetheless, we parted consistantly and it's okay, but I miss having someone to turn to me, cry on my shoulder. May has tried, she has really tried, but nothing came out of it. The Girl I Dislike, I truely don't like, and I know that she doesn't like me. But if she doesn't then why does she feel like she has to be nice to me. I'm pretty sure that she knows that we don't like each other. I don't get it.
There are a bunch of people that I used to be close with but now i have no clue on how to keep track of them///I don't even want to, I just want to know how're you doing? I've lost them. The people that I just listed, I really could care less about them most of the time. I don't really mind, but I want to know what is going on. Probably I need closure. Perhaps I'm just lonely. Maybe I just enjoy hearing stories.
I know that I say that I don't need certain people anymore, but of course, I know that I'm not certain of that. Sure it's easy half of the time not putting up with the same old from the same person, but really I feel empty. I'm missing someone and something that used to be a huge part of me. No, correction; I'm missing alot. But I don't want to go back to it. I hate dwelling on the past. I hate remembering the old bonds. It's useless to go back to most of them. I really don't care for them. I know I can say that for sure. It was like living in a bubble. We were only limited to each other on certain days, and we followed through with that routine for what seemed like ages. For some of these people that I'm talking about, I do actually miss them. I miss him so so much and I know that right now, I can't have him. I can't keep contact with him. I wrote out a letter to a friend, but I still havn't finished it, let alone made any plans on sending it really. The letter started with some compassionate information and memories, but after a week, my feelings shifted and now I just feel like writing some raw material about how I've been. This other girl, we'll call her May, used to be my bestest friend. I do know how, but I don't get how, but nonetheless, we parted consistantly and it's okay, but I miss having someone to turn to me, cry on my shoulder. May has tried, she has really tried, but nothing came out of it. The Girl I Dislike, I truely don't like, and I know that she doesn't like me. But if she doesn't then why does she feel like she has to be nice to me. I'm pretty sure that she knows that we don't like each other. I don't get it.
There are a bunch of people that I used to be close with but now i have no clue on how to keep track of them///I don't even want to, I just want to know how're you doing? I've lost them. The people that I just listed, I really could care less about them most of the time. I don't really mind, but I want to know what is going on. Probably I need closure. Perhaps I'm just lonely. Maybe I just enjoy hearing stories.
IDONTKNOW
...I just feel a bit empty without a few, not necessarily the people above.
...I just feel a bit empty without a few, not necessarily the people above.
posted by Opal Doily at
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