I allow myself to slave it out. To dread every moment. And then sulk.

Constant teen, did you know you miss me?

Do you love the last person you kissed? aaamado and illestboyeva OBVIII Who was the last person you kissed on the lips?

no one. i lamb.
What’s your real name?

jilary hoyce
Is it easy to make you cry?

not lately :DDDDDDDDDD
Have you ever been cheated on?

kinda?
Do you wish at 11:11?

yea! AND TODAY MY WISH CAME TRUE 6 MINS AFTER!
How’s June going for you so far?

its not june
Do you like your life?

yeaa
What is your relationship status?

siingle. no i donut mingle.
If you’re in a relationship, who with?

eheheheheheheheeeeeeeeee
Do you hate anyone?

everyone
Does anyone hate you?

everyoneeee!
What is your biggest regret?

meh i regret little things like buying this cake instead of the other one
Do you miss anyone from your past?

iits not like i dont talk them still
Did you kiss someone at midnight on new years eve?

no. i was dead.
Ever been in love?

just vance.
Would it hurt you to see the person you last kissed, kissing someone else?

no.
How many times have you cried this week?

twce for non emotional reasons....
Do you cry yourself to sleep at night?

ALWAYS!
Who are you messaging right now?

jip jap/ alright mike/ doucher dennis
Who was the last person to inbox you on facebook?

jeanette
Who was the last person to break your heart?

uuuuuuuuuuuuh it broke my heart when i read that robert sheen wasnt going back to misfits?
Are you listening to any music ? If so, what song ?

all that you?
1. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?

i love dozzzz! 2. A big poofy dress or a short party dress?

BIG AND POOFY BIC 3. What would you do if you received a long love letter?

read it. think about it. burn it. 4. Group dates or single dates?

single dates. single forever. 5. Do you hate it when guys act different around their friends?

you accept it and appreciate the person that they are when youre both alone? 6. Are diamonds a girls best friend?

my mom likes pearls. 7. Is your hair up or down today?

up atm 8. Do you straighten your hair?

nope. every once in a while. 9. Favorite mascara?

dont use mascara anymore BUT i love anythng clinic hehe 10. Do you get your nails done?

nope. 11. Small or large purses?

i wanna use small purses now BUT i need to bring tooo much with me at alll times! 12. In your purse, what are your must haves?

MY ROOM! and matches. 13. Jeans or sweats?

harem pants 14. Do you wear clothes/shoes/jewelry thats uncomfortable?

shoes always. 15. Do you text message a lot? yea, its annoying, i stoped

16. What would you do if you got pregnant? have da baby.

17. Whats your favorite color? guess i could say pale pink

18. Heels or flats? HEEELS!

19. Did you ever cry during a romantic movie? always before

20. Would you ever leave the house without make-up on? usually do

21. Walmart or Target? targettt

22. Do you wear collared shirts? sii sii!!! the formality!

23. Do you like preppy boys? i donut know donut mind donut care

24. Do you think lip gloss is the best!? no. lipsticks gets dicks.

25. Do you own any big sunglasses? i should have 5

26. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning? maybe 30 mins if i find a good outfit quick quack

27. Do you like to wear band-aids?

yea! 28. Do you like skater boys? i like the song sk8er boi

29. Do you often wish there was something you could change? too manyy things

30. Gold or silver?

goooooooooooold 31. Do you like to receive flowers?

if hand picked lool
32. Do you like surfer boys?

surfer dudes* 33. Do you dress up for the holidays?

i dress up always! 34. Do you like to wear dresseses?

ALWAYYYS 35. On a scale of 1-10 how much do guys confuse you?

like 6. i get you all now 36. In the last 48 hours have you hung out with a guy?

I HUNG OUT WITH TWO ON MONDAY! 37. Would you date a guy shorter than you?

no. but im gonna date a guy with shorter fingers than me. 38. Do you like to hold hands?

or pinkies. 39. What is the youngest you would date?

a year younger. 40. What is the oldest you would date?

8 years older. maybe 20 years older if hes riiiiichessss. 41. What do you notice when you first meet a guy?

how they say hi i guess 42. Is it hot when guys sweat?

i like sweat in general. 43. What is the best feature in a guy?

able to tolerate hilary rate

44. Do you like making eye contact? no

46. Would you kill for chocolate? yeaa

47. Did you ever spend all day/night getting pretty for a guy? ish but thats life

48. On a scale from 1-10 how fun is shopping? its now a 7, unless if at value village

49. Do you freak out if you miss your favorite show? YES! but rogers on demand <3

50. Do you yell a lot?

yea. its fun doe. 51. Do you wear sweatpants/pajamas to school/work? my pjs change all the time and i usually wear them out eventually.

52. Have you ever dressed unlike yourself to impress a guy? nah. i can be anything.

53. Do you write a lot of mushy love poems? no. jeffrey does lool

54. What makeup could you not live w/ out? cover up :(

55. Do you fall in love easily? no, but yes, but no.

56. Do you have cramps? kinda atm

57. Do you think you have the bestest friend ever? no, i hate all my friends. no one deserves bestest.

A – Accidents

01. Have you ever been in a car accident? as a babe

02. Do you have a lot of scars? frggin cat

03. Have you ever been in a fist fight with someone? nope

04. Have you ever seriously hurt anyone by mistake? both physically and emotionally cause im a tough cookie and a heartbreaker. be careful.

05. Have you ever had stitches? Where? no nooo

B – Beauty

06. Do you consider yourself beautiful? i know im pretty

07. Are you self conscious of how you look? yess

08. Do you put on a lot of makeup? nooo

09. Would you ever consider getting plastic surgery? nooo

10. What do you think makes a person beautiful? that tiny hint of themselves that people cant hide

C – Consequences

11. What was the longest amount of time you’ve been grounded for? never. well maybe a mnth at most.

12. What would you do if you got pregnant, keep it or have an abortion? continue being a sacred vessel that holds what is liiife

13. Do you ever think about how your actions affect other people? sometimes always

14. What do you think is the worst punishment someone could give you? maybe silent treatment, or abandonment

15. What is one thing you wish you didn’t do, just because it wasn’t worth it in the end? YORK UNIVERSITY!

D – Dealing

16. When you are mad at someone, how do you show them? um im never mad at people?

17. Name a time when you had to be strong. you mean everyday?

18. Have you ever dealt with a divorce or parents fighting? Any kind of abuse at home? no, yes, no

19. When people at school don’t accept you, or have problems with you, how do you react? shock, inquiry, DONTGIVEASHIT

20. Have you ever lost someone to death? Explain how you got through it. no one close to me

E – Experience

21. Have you ever had a job? Any volunteer jobs? this is not a resume

22. Do you think that you are sexually experienced, or not at all? not anymore :)

23. Have you gone through a lot emotionally, or has life been easy thus far? life has been easy, being able to deal has not

24. Do you think you are ready to be on your own (have your own home, job, etc.)? not financially. i could take a rented room?

25. How old do you act? i act like a silly and carefree 60 year old?

F – Family

26. Is there anyone in your family you don’t talk to? Why? no one

27. If you had to choose, family or friends? famzz

28. Can you tell your parents or one of your parents anything? nope

29. Do you have any siblings? If so, do you ever get jealous of them? im soo jeally of my brother and his everything 30. How often do you spend ‘quality time’ with family members? everyday

G – Growing

31. How tall are you? How tall do you wish you were? im 5...and a quarter. i wish i was 5'3

32.Do you think that you have grown more in the past year than any year before that? i havent grown for the last 3 years

33. As a person, do you think you are mature for your age or still act childish? as a person i am childish. as a cat i act like an old person.

34. Are you scared to think that one day you will turn 30, then 40, then 50? BRING ON THE WRINKLES!

35. Do you believe you still have a lot to learn? yea.

H – Hope

36. Love – real or not? reeeal to meeee!

37. Are you a pessimist of an optimist? opt now :)

38. Do you believe in fate, that everything happens for a reason, or do you think that our actions lead the way? its fate that you choose a certain choice....

39. Do you think that after we die our spirit is still alive? yes. i am a spirit. with a body.

40. What gives you hope when you just feel like dying? i look at you and smile because im fine. jk. um 'youre just in a funk' 'NO!' 'its ok we all need to vent' 'there once was this little girl...' its many things.

I – Issues

41. Do you suffer from depression or constant sadness/loneliness? i am constantly lonely

42. Do you have any type of disease or disability? nope.

43. Are you currently in a hard relationship or have bad luck with the opposite sex? how do i explain thisss

44. Do you think that you are alone in this world? no 45. How often do you think about death, suicide or running away? 24/7

J – Jokes

46. Say a word or phrase that would not be funny to anyone but you & one of your friends (an inside joke) msr house

47. Are you usually the one who makes people laugh,Or the other way around? both ways around

48. Do you cry when you laugh hard? when its reeeally hard

49. Write down a hilarious moment you had with someone that makes you laugh to this day! today adrien and jono were making fun of my hair that doesnt make sense

50. Do you ever get in trouble for laughing or talking a lot during class? lol class

K – Knowledge

51. The purpose of school: to learn, to cause trouble or to hang out with friends? learn. socialize.

52. Do people refer to you as smart, dumb, or average? i think people expect me to be smart.

53. What was the highest grade you have received (full course mark) ever? ............92?

54. What was your last average? This year would you like to maintain it or aim higher? 82.5?

55. What do you find the most interesting subject to be (to study or to talk about)? history is fun. and i like talking about past experiences anywys.

L – Love

56. Are you currently in love? If not, have you been before? once i was. it was nice and evelle. mostly evelle.

57. Do people around you show you a lot of love (tell you they love you, hug you, kiss you, etc.)? not affectionately. but im a cancer, were loveable people.

58. Is love worth it? i cant but any sort of worth onto such a thaaaaang.

59. Do you hate it when girls in their young teenage years say they ‘love’ someone that they’ve been dating for a few months? i dont object

60. Does it take a lot for you to say you love someone, or is it just a word? takes a while, but always implied

M – Money

61. Do you believe that money makes the world go round? nooo its love and love making and children and generations of this magicccc!

62. Is your family on the poor side, average, or above average when it comes to money? averagely

63. Are you saving up for college/university, or planning to? ive done no saving...i just deal

64. Would you rather win millions of dollars & be set for life, or find the perfect person to marry & start a family with? we already agreed that were gonna win the lottery and buy a mansion

65. On a scale of 1-10, how important is money to you? like 3

N – Naughty

66. Are you a virgin? is the sky blue?

67. What do you think about doing sexual things with someone you’re not going out with? im not that kinda girl...anymore hehhee

68. Do you know anybody you consider a ’slut’? What makes you say that? i stopped callling people sluts

69. If you could, would you erase some things you did in the past or make it so you did more? erase things

70. Do you consider yourself more nice or more naughty? You can’t say both! im more nice now

O – Openness

71. How long does it take for you to open up to someone? it seems to have taken a month this time, but this one was easier

72. What does it take for you to fully trust someone? alot of alcohol. jk. umm, just an okay mixture of body chemicals and a few good tlks prior.

73. Are you generally untrusting towards people because of past experiences, or any other reason? i could hold grudges, but not for long. i dont tell everyone my life story anyways. no one knows my life story.

74. When are you comfortable with someone sexually? after they make the frst a thousand moves

75. When it comes to parents and close friends, what’s the limit of what you can tell them? too many limiits

P – Positive

76. Have you ever had an experience with someone that didn’t necessarily end positively? If so, would you rather erase the memory of that person because of the sad times or keep the memory of that person because of the good times? keep all experiences for future advice but dont let the bad ones keep you down, everything is for learning and to be considered as what was

77. Do you agree with the saying: better to have loved and lost than not have loved at all? yea

78. Are you more optimistic or pessimistic? What do you try to be? i try to be optimistic but i keep my hopes to myself and complain about life constantly

79. Do you agree that something good can come out of everything? yea

80. Have you ever had a time where something really bad happened, but something really good happened because of it? If so, please exlain what it was: ummmmmmm....

Q – Questions

81. When faced with a problem, do you ask for help or try to figure it out yourself? ask for help and ignore half of the advice given, i just like hearing what options i have

82. Do you often question the world and how we came about? What are some things you would like to know about creation? i dont question it, we are here

83. Do you think the government is truthful? If you could ask the president one question, what would it be? ummm

84. When someone does something wrong to you, do you confront them and ask them why they did it or just let it go? i just let it go. its alrighhhht.

85. What is one unsolved mystery about the world that you want answers to? but where do babies come from?

R – Respect

86. How do you show respect? eye contact

87. What can someone do for you to lose all respect for them? decieveeeee me!!!!

88. Do you respect your teachers, parents, and other authority figures? yes.

89. When you are disrespectful to your parents, what is the punishment? argumentssss

90. If someone is mean to you, are you mean back or do you kill them with kindness? i just kill her

S – School

91. If you are still in school, what grade will you be going into? im starting first year in sept

92. When will you graduate high school/college? i will graduate college in four years

93. After high school, what did you do/are you planning to do? im going to humber for applied arts interior design!

94. Do you like or hate school? What do you like/hate about it? iderrrno iderntkaaare

95. Have you ever been suspended, expelled, or dropped out of school? i dropped for a yearrr

T – Temptation

96. Have you ever done something wrong, knowing it was wrong, because something inside of you said it was okay?

you mean life?

97. Has anyone ever pressured you to smoke or drink? Did you do it? like you mean life? but i donut smoke

98. Did you ever cheat on someone? Why did you do it? eeeee naaah

99. Did you ever want to do something sexual with someone you didn’t really know or love? What did you end up doing? zeeez are called fantasies.

100. Do you give in to temptation easily, or are you more independent and strong willed? easily tempted.

U – Unique

102. Do you do a lot of things because your friends are doing it? nope

103. Do you follow trends, wear whatever you want, or wear really unique pieces? third one

104. Do you give in easily to peer pressure? Do you do things such as smoke, drink, or have casual sex? e e e e

105. What makes you different from people your age? umm................? too much

V – Value

106. What’s the most expensive thing in your room? i guess just my bed lol

107. What’s more valuable: your life or the lives of your loved ones? Would you sacrifice your life for other people? the life of my loved oneeeees lool

108. What is something you value not because it cost a lot, but because it means a lot to you? memorrrry booooxxxx

109. If there was a fire in your house/apartment, what is the first thing you would grab? CAT!

110. Do you think past memories and experiences are more valuable than what could possibly happen in the future? yuh i hate future!

W – Wishes

111. If you had three wishes, what would they be? i wish i was dead. i wish no one would care. i wish my cat would play wish my ghost. JK

112. Would you rather wish yourself to be happy, or your loved ones? mee, everyone else is already chipper. lol jk

113. Do you believe that wishes come true if you really believe in them? i think no. but i try.

114. Have you ever had a wish come true? If so, what was that wish? ive had quiiiite a feeeeew

115. Do you find wishing for things a waste of time because everything that’s meant to happen, will happen? lol yuh

Y – You

121. Are you more independent or social? im just a loner

122. What is something that makes you very mad when you see it? rudenesss

123. Do you think that you have potential to do great things? i always do great thngs

124. Do you think people are born a certain way, or develop their personalities based on what they go through in life? nuuuurrrrtuuuureeeee

125. Do you think people are generally good ? yuh

Z – Zest

126. Are you currently happy with your life? Why or why not? im okay

128. When change occurs, do you get scared or are you excited for it? exctiitttted!

129. Do you like to try new things, meet new people? yes and yes but no and no

130. What is the most motivational thing in the world? ummmmmmm

Is it easy for someone to make you smile? i smile at anythng to be polite and pleasant lookin

Tell me why you like the last song you listened to? cause i miss you and like listening to things that you like

What color are your eyes? brun

Where was the last place you fell asleep other than your bed? the sofa

How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust? none

What would your name be without the first three letters? ary

Last thing you touched not computer-related? cream egg, but i just finished it

What colors are you wearing right now? drk blue, light blue, light pink

You currently in a fight with someone? mentally yes :@

Have you ever stood up for someone you hardly knew? no not really no...

Do you have an older brother? nooo

Have you ever laughed so hard you cried? always

Do you look at the keyboard when you type? sometimes, most times

What are you listening to right now? this is your llife- the killers

Do you laugh a lot? yuh

Are you ticklish? yuh, but violent when tickled

What always makes you feel better when you’re upset? um, a couple of good thangs

Have you ever been on a boat? yes

Last person you gave a hug to? adrien and jono

Tell me about the shirt/shirts you’re wearing? m in a dress

When you are home alone do you still close the door when you shower? no

Do you have plans for today? day is done

When is the last time you took a nap? i just had one

What was on your mind most today? i didnt think much today. i guess i was wondering where the fuck your txt was

Do you talk about your feelings or hide them? hide i hide i hiiiiide

What instant messaging service do you use? msn, and fb chat

How long does it take for you to fall asleep at night? looong

Do you have any siblings? little brother

Do you get along? yes

What are you drinking? my spit

Honestly, if you could go back 8 months and change something, would you? id say not go to york, but then i woudt have met hanz...idk id change somethng, just dunno what

Do you know what you’re wearing tomorrow? nooope

Do you know anyone who smokes weed? doo i

Have you ever made out in a bathroom? ...yes

Do you think the last person you kissed is nice? no lol no lol no lol no lol no lol

Who was the last person to call you? myyy daaad

What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had? oj...smpson

When is the last time you cried? ummm, i cnt even remember actually

Are you scared of spiders? no, but they yuck

Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? to check thngs out yuh

What are your plans for this weekend? all i know is early mroning ftting on satuday

Ever been swimming in a lake or river? yes

Last person you drove with in a car? daddd

What did you last buy? vaue vilage shit

What’s irritating you right now? uuuuuuuuugh

What radio stations do you listen to? sooft rock lol

Are you afraid of the dark? ish

Are you listening to music right now? yuh

Do you like Chinese food? yess

What is the last movie you saw in theaters? umm maybe somewhere ?

Is there anyone you wish was still in your life? siiiiiigh you all suck

Do you get distracted easily? always

First time you kissed the last person you kissed? that ws the last time i kissed them too

Was this the best year of your life? years not over. um its been odd so far, but better than last year

Who are your best friends? no one

What was going through your mind during your last kiss? im drunk

Is it easier to forgive or forget? forgettt

Are you jealous of someone? everyone who sees anyone everyday

What last made you laugh the hardest? how i ws flipping shit at the laptop infront of my parents and they asked me whaaat

Do you flirt a lot? accidently

Would you live with someone without marrying them? yuh for a while

Have you ever had a dream about people you love dying? only one person i think

Who was the last person you cried in front of? i cried beside someone but i dont think they saw

Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle? baby days

Who was the last person that made you feel safe, why? when do i ever feel safe

Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts? alwaysss

Have you ever broken someone’s heart? maybe

Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend? no one knows

What did you do yesterday? hung out with adrien and jonoooo

Have you ever dated Someone Older Than You? yess

What time did you go to bed at and when did you awake? i slept at like 2:30 and woke up at maybe 9

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? i guess i do. i am weak.

Believe in love at first sight? i guess this thing is real

Will you talk to the person you like on the phone tonight? no cause hes being evelle

Ever had a near death experience? no

Where’s your cell phone? in my bed too

What is the last thing you thought about? this song

Do you regret anything? york thats it alrght

If you found out you were pregnant who would you tell? uhhh, bianca first i guess

What are you going to do this weekend? idk

When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends? a while ago but she left me

Do you prefer revenge or just pure jealousy/envy? umm peas on earth

Who would you like your next “fling” to be with? ..........f this great one doesnt work out...idk

Would you curse in front of your parents? dad

What kind of camera do you have? some old pentax bby g filmster

Would you rather go to a party or out of town? out of town

Are you slowly drifting away from someone close? :(

When was the last time you held someone’s hand? jono?

Who can you tell everything to? no onnne

Can you play guitar hero? yes but poorly

Do you like www.facebookcraze.com? whut

Is any part of your body sore? face

Are you missing someone right now? :(

Is there someone on your mind that shouldn’t be? no

When was the last time you saw the person you last kissed? um never

Do you like your phone? luuv her

Last thing alcohol beverage? wines

Have you ever slept in a bed with the opposite sex? yes

Have any of your best friends ever back stabbed you? its my fault!

If you had to move in with a friend, which one would you pick? i think maybe umm idk.

What’s the seventh text message in your inbox say? my msgs come in convos, hard to tell. maybe raniel

When is your next road trip? summer?

What did you do the weekend? uh nothing i guess if cnt remember. metro, glendora, cloud watching, hill rolling, easter

Met anyone new in the past week? girl at the lbrary

What does your bestfriends call you? theres no nicknames for me.

Who was the last person to go to the movies with you? mackrel ages ago!

Are you currently fighting with someone? :@:@:@

Last time you had butterflies in your stomach? a mnth ago

Who/What would you like to see right now? teepee times at a sunrise wit chuuu

Are you mad at someone right now? yes lol

What’s the nicest text in your inbox say? too manyz

Do you mainly use your house phone or your cell phone? cell

Is there an empty place in your heart? someones fillng it up...except fr today!

Do you count down the days till anything? my countdowns over, BUT YOURE STILL NOT IN MY BED

Are you looking forward to something as of right now? i would be, if you werent so evelle and sneaky

Have you ever been called a tease? saturday

What are your chances of getting with your crush? well after the next 4 mnths goes by...

What is the farthest you’ve traveled with a friend? montreaal...

Are any of your friends so close that you consider them family? ish but no

Anyone told you a secret this week? noope

Do you ever turn your cell phone off? yuh

Do you hate anyone? EVERYONNNES

Last time you wore the opposite sex’s clothing? i wore my brothers hood today

What do you want in your life right now? logg cabin! jk. just a boy. and a time machine. maybe a teleporter would do too. or just my fave caaar

When was the last time you laughed so hard you thought you were going to cry? um saturday.

Did you tell someone something today? i told someone what school im going to in september

Do you trust people easily? no

What were you doing at 9pm Friday night? ummm...nothing. it was good friday.

My next big project is

The road is just too long

Day in and day out, all I think about are things that I can't share. Trying to feel out days in advance of moments that have never existed. I have never actually imagined as properly. They're almost perfected. Just missing one important component.

My love will turn you on

People usually don't get a break on Mondays. But today felt better than a Saturday morning.

Karaoke txting, a warm foamy shower, bralette time, duvet tents, an instant outfit, 5km walk --in nice weather--with no iPOD-- to the library, just flipping through pages, small things to appreciate, big things to dream, just walking, the introduction to a new law, black and white, crotch bust LVERS, fairy huts, erosion in progress, climbing up muddy hills, not skipping rocks, talking about children, believing n responsibly, butterscotch ripple with peanut butter and honey, peace, high book piles, sinking into pillows all over again.

Bless'd

The aftershock of my heart is blowing my brain.

Fantasies from the maverick are made from the madness in her heart. Or maybe in her mourning. No no, it's just a sunny morning. Nonetheless. Who's gonna understand? Who will accept?

Sure you agree with that statement

I noticed all of the wires that run across the neighbourhood. And I thought about how you're never around. You don't want to know about the things I did this week.